Blah

I need to escape. I need to get out and do something fun.

I just don't what, nor how I would pay for it.

I also need a man. My lonliness is starting to eat at me again, and once you start sinking it gets harder and harder to keep your head above water.

I hate to lean on my friends any more than I already am. I already feel that I'm asking too much of them. And yet I find that I am wanting more and more social time just to keep my mind from pulling me down.

I'm not talking internet social either. I'm talking actually getting out there and interacting with people.

I've also had a hard time writing these entries lately. I just don't seem to care.

I wish that these cycles would end. I wish for someting to happen that makes these moods go away. But I've lived with them long enough to know better.

All I can do is wait it out. Hope ya'll will wait with me.