Understanding

I think I'm finally understanding a small portion of my exhaustion as of late. I need a break. It's been more than five years since I've been on a vacation, and I think that part of the problem is the endless repetitivness of the 'daily grind'. I mean I went straight from school to work to school to work. Of course, even if I had the money for a vacation (which I don't) I still have another fundamental problem. Vacations are no fun by yourself. At least not to me. I mean sure, you can go on one by yourself, but the enjoyment factor would be signifigantly less. Roller coasters are no fun without someone to scream with, and museums are boring without somebody to share in your discovery or to discuss the finer points of the art. I also have no idea of where I would want to go. There are plenty of places I want to go to, but would cost more than I could save up for right now. And all the close places need that extra person doubly so because I've been there. I think that I probably will be saving up to get my passport renewed. I don't think it's much, as long as I didn't let it sit long enough to have to get a completely new passport. Then I think I'll start saving for a trip to Europe, or somewhere abroad. Maybe Canada. Yeah, I know. It'll be even longer to go on vacation if I'm saving up to leave the country. But maybe by the time I feel I have enough money to go there will be somebody to go with me. Besides, it's been ten years since I first went to Germany and Italy. And I really had a lot of fun seeing the historic sites and being somewhere where the culture was so different. I guess in the meanwhile I should really think about something that's not quite so lofty. But for now it looks like I'm still stuck.